Fuck everything, seriously I doing everything for you!
Why can't you see and appreciate it?!
You don't know how I take in all you're insults to me.
You don't know how much stuff you do me that hurts.
You're so lucky, I'm not a snake of person to hurt you more then ever.
I love you Alyssa, You need to see that your Boyfriend is trying to do everything for you. Just look at the picture.

I don't even use this anymore, Weird...

[Slug]
These headphones keep me from rememberin' (rememberin')
Also guilty of letting me not forget (also guilty)
What type of harvest will September bring? (beckoning)
Everyone to put him to that test (Somebody please kill me)
I've got a sickness, it feels like love
It's not contagious, take off the gloves
Drop your defenses, apply a coat of perfect
I'll form the sentences you try to interpret
It'd all be so simple if I was rich (But I'm not)
But I'm not so I compensate with thought (I got a lot)
I got a lot of nothin' that you need to know (Ay yo)
You would think he wasn't aware of the glow (Where'd you go?)
Swimmin' in a bottle of imposters
Losin' my ground in the name of takin' it farther
We can thumb wrestle or we can make a daughter
I thought it was supposed to get easier when you worked harder
Stole the city, I still feel helpless
Baited the hook and caught me a shellfish (?selfish?)
I'm gonna gut it, clean it, cook it, feed it to a she(?)
And see if I can get her to need me

[Chorus x2]
And now I'm standin' at the bottom of the steps
And if I tilt my head a little I can look up her dress
And I'm willin' to bet that she'd move if she knew
So I'ma tap her on the shoulder, I'ma give her a clue

[Slug]
All it takes is a stroll down the street
A pro and he greets and he sold the life to me
Showed you the meaning of the artery he keeps on the end of his sleeve
As he pretends he can breathe
Lend me a piece of your superiority
I feel alone on this mission, I'm wishin' there was more of me
A pair of me, apparently I'm a parasite caught inside a paradox
A paradise, a parody, the hair police have got what you need
For you to get over me and move on with Godspeed
I'd let it all go and break eggs for a livin'
If I wasn't so conditioned to just take what I'm given
Get it, got it, catch it, caught it, and lost it
Yet I can't stop it, it's embedded in my optics
Plus the frustration is a product of the gossip
If you can't walk away can you at least change the topic?
Overextended the amount of time allotted
Broke the engine, I don't know, cracked the block
Now I'm standin' at this gravel roadside festival
And I ain't tryin' to move cause this view is incredible

[Chorus x2]
Standin' at the bottom of the steps
And if I tilt my head a little I can look up her dress
And I'm willin' to bet that she'd move if she knew
So I'ma tap her on the shoulder, I'ma give her a clue

[Slug]
Fall in love with all of she (Fall in love with all of she)
Hasn't stopped callin' me (Hasn't stopped callin' me)
Message in a bottle (There's a message in a bottle)
And I stepped inside a pothole (I stepped inside a pothole)
Somehow forgot my name (Somehow forgot my name)
Blew out the flame (She blew out the flame)
A means to an end (A means to an end)
Can't even be friends, it's a song about a friend
She's still in my dreams (She steals all my dreams)
Angel spread your wings (Angel spread your wings)
Tryin' to comprehend (I'm still tryin' to comprehend)
Can't even be friends, it's a song about a friend

"A Girl named Hope" gave me "Complications" but had a "Sunshine" to her complexion. She moved me like "Puppets" I "Shoulda Known" "You" "Yesterday".

Songs from Atmosphere

I gived, I tried, I tear'd, What do I do now?
Everything I do wasn't enough.
And now when we broke, You treat me as I was the bad guy.
and everything between us is ackward.
I just want to be friends.
Close friends.
Because my feelings for you hasnt stop.
But I have to let go of you.

Alone one. No other can be for me.

I dont know where I be, from this day.

Another day without seeing you.. Its hard to deal with.

I need to fucking see her.
no lie, this fucking sucks for me not to see her.
and seeing guys flirt with her, or maybe their not and im just thinking they are?
But still. I need her, I need to see her.
Like seriously, I waiting to see if she's trully sorry
I wonna see if she can change.
but I cant see that until I see her.
More I wait, more I think.
More I think, More I lose.
I dont want that to happen.
I love her too mucch to lose her.

I hope she can visit me anytime sooner..

I know, you are trying. I'm sorry i'm controling you. But from what we have to do to get a better relationship will be worth it. Well, it wasnt raining it was drizzling. But anyways if you can really can change and fix your lazyness. I'm sorry im trying to change you, but im upset to I have ot change for you, but we both have to change for the better Baby!

You're a not a shit girlfriend.
We'll see if you can change for me as I changed for you.
I'm not going to have second thoughts about this relationship.
Because I want to make this work.

Alyssa, it was all just a joke between me and her. We don't even like each other.. We're just tight friends. It's like you and your friends that are guys, but the joke I did was alittle too high to joke around with. But Seriously.. If you can't believe me or trust me then. then i'm going to get over this. I love so much Alyssa. But if you can trust me or believe me, then I dont know what I can do for you. Sometimes it's not always about you, sometimes you got to see from my perpective in this relationship. I'm not trying to be a bitch and whatever. I want you to understand..
Dont take this in a wrong way, because I'm not trying to insult you or anything. I just want you to know its not always about you in this relationship. and I really need you.

I miss you, I really need to see you!
and I wont be seeing you because of your bestfriends birthday. Alyssa, it hurts me the most that I can't see you. and I really need to see you. You had a chance of seeing me yesterday. But you choose not to and went to your place with your friends because you we're lazy. I can't have a lazy girl Alyssa. If I need to change, so do you. I love you alot Alyssa, but it hurts for me not to see you. I need to see you right now. I know I keep repeating this but, I need you to understand from what i'm saying and from my perpective in this relationship.

I won't be doing anything else, until I see you change for me. and if you don't know what you need to change for me then just ask me.
remember dont take this as i'm mad at you or like an insult or anything. I'm just doing this for our relationship.

I love you so much Alyssa!

Happy birthday Sean!
yo tonight was hell up fun dude, you, Claurence, Jake were soo drunk.
Well Apo and Kurt was sober and me and Jonathan were tipsy still!
Thanks Jonathan for keeping me Tipsy/Sober, you're a true friend still! LOL
Claurence, you're too jokes when you're drunk, you ask for dance battles and you jump around lifting Jake in the air and like swear and tell people off out of no where, you're a trooper dude! LOL Jake, and Sean, you guys are funny, when you guys just party it out and just dance still, Kurt and Apo, you guys are are so smart by staying sober so you can do draw everyones face and do so much pranks on them! LOL

I'm sorry Alyssa... I screwed up as a boyfriend and lost a chance. Im dearly sorry..
I love you alot.. you dont deserve some messed up guy like me.. I'm fucked..
Everything I do is stupid. I really love you, and not your body, you should know since I begged you back Alyssa, I really trully love you for who you are and your personality and not your body.

the feelings I have everyday:
-TIRED
-HUNGEY
-WHIPPED
-BORED
-SLEEPY
-LAZY
-HAPPY

I MISS HER!
I need another day with her just to chill!

Happy 2 month baby! Damn, we made it! :D
Lets keep going, I know our times were alot rough then our good times, but we always get through it. You're amazing did you know? Like when we were in the movies, and the time we went to wonderland together. I had alot of fun with you Alyssa! It's so amazing being with you. Like when im with you inperson, I get my heart beating so fast, and the feelings in my stomach comes. The time you were in my house, it was amazing how we can just watch t.v. without saying anything and still have that great loving feeling. Alyssa you are my greatest and best girlfriend I ever had. You even took me back when we broke up. Like when we broke up, I was so happy! You don't know how happy I was Baby! Like the day we got back together, I didn't look happy. But when I was home I was so happy Alyssa! Seriously You mean so much to me, you making me so happy. I dont wonna let you go Baby! Being with you means so much to me, like its so hard to explain. Alyssa I dont even know what I'm saying in this blog like, I'm just putting whatever I feel. but I seriously LOVE you! You're my best of all! You're Amazing, You're GORGEOUS, You're everything I ever needed. You may make mistakes. But mistakes doesnt take away my love for you!
I love you Alyssa Garcia

From your FAT ASS CHEEKS Boyfriend,
Jay Arellano

She's back with me! I feel soo happy!
I finally can be happy! :)
All of these begging and asking her, and not giving up trully was worth it!
I'm going to change for her, like she asked.
Hopefully she'll change for me, when I asked her! :O
I'll make this right, I'll wont fight with her no more.
I love her too much to give up with relationship with her.
I know she has the same feeling
I'll give her the trust she needs
I'll try my ever best.

You raised my hopes, you told me you love me, you told me you want to be with me again, then at the last minute you fucking want to be single? WHAT THE FUCK?!
STOP PLAYING MY FEELINGS, IM NOT YOUR FUCKING TOY! Like I'll treat to so well, i treat you so nice, and now I get is a door in my face? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!
NOW IT JUST PISSES ME OFF,NO YOU KNOW THE DAMAGES ARE GOING TO DO TO ME. I TRIED SO HARD FOR YOU! WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT? WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT I LOVE YOU! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BREAK IT WHY YOU HAVE TO DO ALL OF THIS? SO YOU CAN HAVE CHANCES WITH OTHER GUYS?! AND FLIRT WITTH THEM? WHEN YOU KNOW THAT IM IN FRONT OF YOU, KNOWING THAT IM THE ONE FOR YOU? THE NEXT TIME YOU ASK FOR ME TO BE WITH YOU AGAIN, IT MIGHT BE A MAYBE, BECAUSEI CANT SOMEONE WHO'S GONNA PLAY WITH MY FUCKING HEART. I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING, I WAS WILLING TO CHANGE FOR YOU, I WAS GIVING YOU A GUY THATS ME TO BE YOUR PERFECT ONE. I WAS DOING SO MUCH FOR YOU. AND YOU'RE LETTTING IT GO?! SERIOUSLY ALYSSA. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! YOU PLAYED WITH MY HEART TOO MUCH. YOU WILL REGRET NOT TAKING ME BACK BECAUSE THIS IS MESSED! THANKS FOR GIVING ME THE HARDEST TIME OF MY NEW CHANGE. I EVEN CUT MY HAIR FOR YOU! NOW ITS A WASTE OG 15$ AND MY HAIR.
CLEARLY, YOU HAVE THINKING TO DO. BECAUSE WHAT YOU DONT WAS A "MISTAKE!"