I fully fucked up the relationship with me and Alyssa..
My anger and my thoughts got the best of me..
I shouldnt have spazzeed at her..
I shouldnt had said to her.
I made so much mistakes but this mistake is a huge one.
I seriously fucked this one up.
Now she doesn't talk to me as we use to talk anymore..
Like sometimes for me, it seems so ackward.
me n her dont do this thing we do when we say I love you anymore..
She doesnt call me baby anymore..
This will always kill me..
fuck.. im sorry alyssa..