Today was a worst day ever, because everyone was so flop.
I was suppose to battle this guy name Stanley but he had to go to a party.
and other people had dates. So I was left with Reiner, Brendan, me, Ryan.
Luckily there was two dance crews that I knew, So i chilled with them. :)
but the noo, I saw too much couples, and I started to miss her. And I was hoping if she was going to come today. But I guess she didnt, but there's always tuesday to see her, if I finish my dentist appointment quick. I need to see her, so I can finally ask her because its killing me how I cant ask her and Im suppose to ask her this week but my fucking wisdom teeth was holding me back. Luckily my wisdom teeth healed. So now I cn finally see her.

Guess what? I saw my old nieghbour, Jonathan Sarmiento. I never saw him for so long.
and he was chilling with Patricia, and I never knew they were checking. Thats a surprise. lool.

I lov her so much, Im talking to her on the phone right now and she's such a big LOSER LOL! and like im taking her out to the movies/kelseys on tuesday. :) ;)
Then the movies, I dont know LOL :)

Okay, Ive been wrong about this.
If you say its nothing then its nothing.
Just tell me serious, then I'll believe you
Sometimes im hard headed so yeah.

Disappointed in me too?
What did I do exactly do?

Answer:
I already told you I am ready to handle your worst
I told you three times already, I dont wonna repeat myself.
What I say, is what I mean.

I love you too, Alyssa Garcia and you're
not going to lose me.

Im not mad at you, im not sad, I just wonna make things right.

Sorry.

MIDDLE:
Is it a good thing to worry?
because im worried as shit..
Like I see her, writing these things.
And I fully ask her if anything is wrong and she lies to me..
Im disappointed. Because I see there is something wrong.
Why cant you be honest to me?
Like I worry alot about you.
Im always here to help, but you're not letting me.
I miss you too, but im healing.
I do love you, but we have to talk more about this honesty.

BAD:
You call me fam, when you dont talk you me?
and the other, is pulling bitch moves?
and this is fam? -.-"
Wow, clearly this isnt my fam anymore.
clear im not getting trust from this fam either.
Im done with you guys. You guys are stupid.
Dont come to me with bullshit, because I already tried to fix this shit
and you guys just ruin it. So no more.


GOOD:
YES, my stitches has dissolved. Now I gotta wash my mouth with Water and Salt everytime I eat.. Isnt that fun? But Yes its healing fast, maybe I do have a chance going to my session of friday? and can go out with her next week tuesday for sure! :)
I want my mouth to heal quick, because I think things between and her are dying.. but Im not gonna let that happen.

I made her that sad, I made her miss me too much
It hurts to hear cry. What am I doing wrong?
Is it the fact im doing too good to get this much wrong?
Or its the fact Bad is now the good?
Im getting too confused, well not really..
I feel so horrible..
I wanted to go today with her and her friends
I wanted to ask her
I wanted to be with her again.
She's telling me she can wait
She's telling she understands
I just she can wait a week..
I dont wonna loose her. and yet im not even with her..
ALL BECAUSE OF MY WISDOM TEETH.
I need these stitches to heal in my mouth..

Man, I feel terrible right now..
I cant go out, I cant go to the movies tomorrow..
I wanted to go tomorrow with her.
But then no my mouth is still in pain..
hopefully i can go to the skatepark with her and her little brother.
I never knew he likes me as his sisters yeah.. LOL
but ugh, I wonna ask her now.
I wonna see her.
but this wisdom teeth is clearly not letting me to see her.
ugh why?

Yesterday I found the song ive been looking for since june
thanks to reiner nd his ipod, I fucking got the song O.o
now i need their album..

hopefully my mouth heals before wednesday..
as in tuesday.

I can feel too much is never enough
You're always there to lift me up
When these times get rough I was lost Now I'm found
Ever since you've been around
You're the women that I want
So yo, I'm putting it down.

Butterfly by. Crazy Town

Every waking day, I think
everyday there's pain.
Everyday I want to ask you
but things got me behind.
I dont need more interuptions with my health
I need to ask you quick
I need you.
Im in love with you

"I see her reflection on the road, so I know thats the way to go because"

"Because she got me shook
I gave her my love and trust, but I aint running her body and looks
Me and her agaisnt the world, my shortys a crook
since she stole my heart quick and didnt get booked"
^
Half Verse - Jay Arellano

Its been, a month and a half now?
and hopefully next week I can ask her.
I hope she does accept it or say yes.
because my feelings for her is so strong.
Like im fullying being whipped nowadays cause of her.
Im in need for her. LOL
cant believe im saying this
but its true now.

New supreme source of the feeling
cleaning my wisdom when im dreaming
haunted down by stars
Burned up with meaning
Can you feel me?
Most of my dreams have been disappering with a mystery
come down to my level
then you'll hear them whispering
Listen, to the words that coming to most acts of a movement
motion soundless that got me some groove shit
burning high like clouds, grey and white dust
crying to bust, but nothing gets broken down like the word trust..

Freeversed by Jay Arellano

Lastnight, graved to a tomb
fast strike, im dead without those assumed
mission to the next life
its hard to be your food
im feeding your brain with memories chained in a spoon

I live without being believed
I woke up with a dream, being revealed
Last time I remember was being proceed
now baby got seeds in her bleeds.

Damn, i starting to like you but I cant.
I dont want anymore problems
since fucking i go too much with friends getting latched.
and lockdown.
I have to much to go on.

finishing this later on..